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generaltojo
Aug 2nd, 2005, 01:57 PM
Thereís this relatively passable show on reruns on TBS these days called ìBecker (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0174378/),î starring Ted Danson of ìCheers.î Fame. In it, he plays a misanthropic fellow who thinks that the world is a miserable place and pretty much sucks (if that doesnít sound funny, it leads to a bunch of irascible quips and un-PC one-liners that are actually pretty hilarious. Yes, good writing can make any has-been funnier than he actually is.)

In the ep I saw today, a blind dude named Alex, who also happens to be black, meets a knockout of a woman named Nina, who also happens to be blind. Only he doesnít know it until they go out on a date, from which he dumps her because sheís blind. Why? Because heíd always pictured himself going out with someone who sees, as opposed to meeting the stereotype that the handicapped are only fit for the handicapped.

But soon he realizes that sheís a great person and thus the error of his ways, so he meets her again. ìIím glad weíre back together,î he says. ìDumping you because youíre blind is like you dumping me because Iím black.î From which she, of course, dumps him: ìI didnít know. Sorry, I just never pictured myself being with someone whoís black.î

Reggie, the owner of the diner theyíre at was livid, calling Nina a racist. Alex was more philosophical: ìThe heart wants what it wants.î Becker just says this: ìThe world is full of narrow-minded, shallow, superficial people ñ just like Iíve been telling you every day for the last two years.î (All of this, of course, is said within the context of a sitcom, so itís a lot funnier, but the underlying message is pretty sobering.)

Because heís fucking right. Makes me think of how fucked up this world can be when an Asian womanís ìheart wants what it wants,î and itís a White Guy, as opposed to an Asian one. CCBís are all of the above: racists, people who are honest with what they want, and narrow-minded, shallow, superficial. And, based on all these observations, theyíre also terribly normal.

As ridiculous and unjust as it is, THIS ñ IS ñ NORMAL. Get used to it.

Asian men are the blind black men of life. We stumble about with expectations of our own, only to find out that others also have expectations that are clearly not them. Does that negate our expectations? Not necessarily, but we must adjust them to meet the conditions of normalityÖ just like blind people, black people, gay people, handicapped people, or anyone else born or forced a few feet behind the starting blocks in life.

What are our options?

1. Reggie = Rage.
2. Alex = Shrug it off and move on.
3. Becker = Hate the world

All unacceptable. Alternatives?

4. Change the perception of what ìterribly normalî is.
5. Force reality to accept your version of ìnormal.î

Asian guys didnít ask for our lot in life, like many other people. But options 1-3 are unacceptable. We have an obligation to forcibly change the perception of ìterribly normal,î in the tradition of all other great activists in this world ñ Gandhi, Martin Luther King Jr. Nope, this is not too lofty company for us. Itís just about right, methinks.

People have amply demonstrated on this board that they do not like it, but fuck them: their ìnormalî is not as moral and good as our ìnormal.î Ours, quite simply, is better. Itís not an easy road, but itís the moral one, the high-ground we can occupy with pride. Just learn to look beyond your nose, the mirror, and the noses of all the other narrow-minded, shallow, superficial people in this world and focus on the big picture.

A good friend of mine once asked me this: ìWhy donít you care about how you yourself feel?î Being angry and miserable (option 3) is doing exactly that. Care about how you feel. Just learn to love yourself, and have pride in being what you are and who you are. And on that near-impregnable basis, we can execute options 4 and 5, and thus make this world a much better place than it is.

Dialectic
Apr 16th, 2006, 02:47 AM
Hey, how come no one ever responded to this? Too busy wallowing? Follow the word of Tojo!

toml
Apr 16th, 2006, 03:19 AM
woah i totally missed this post!

excellent points toj.

silkie
Apr 16th, 2006, 08:08 PM
Ditto tojo,
your post goes well with poisonrice's other post, and your conclusion echoes how I feel. I think your post is positive, as with Poisenrice's post, because although you are still aware of the problem, you two are trying to reach a solution. There are too many other posts that are just venting, but then doesn't try to solve the problem.

To summarize my own belief (which is similar to yours), I think changing the "terribly normal" is what is required. However, the challenge lies in the fact that to change a ccb's thinking is not as easy as a one-time epipahny, but rather a constant reinforcement of the ideas we want to instill. I truly think that we need the "terribly normal" perception of AMs as being extremely confident individuals. Relating to that, the "terrible irony" is this: in order to achieve full confidence and change what I care about, I have to actively disengage to actually not care about it. From speaking with people in the past, many equate any AM who are aware of the IR disparity is instantly associated as being insecure.

Do I think I have reached a point where I am secure about my sexual identity? I think so. Do I still care about the image of Asian men? I think so too. This just contracdicts with what my previous paragraph proposes, but to be honest I don't know how the two relate. Perhaps the other members can help me shed some light on this.

Strangely, I don't get upset at all when I see a specific AF/XM relationship, but when I enage in the IDEA of IR disparity and Asian people dissing other Asians, I get a nautious feeling. I think perhaps I don't care about my own immediate feeling because, being in a relationship for 2 years now, I no longer subject myself to going after a girl to later discover I am not considered a candidate because of my race.

poisenedrice
Apr 17th, 2006, 05:40 PM
Tojo's post is brilliant because it's a long term strategy (and by long-term don't expect tangible results 5, 10, maybe even 20) years from now. It's the ONLY long term strategy that will work. My posts about building confidence are only small baby steps in the overall scheme of things.

To bring some perspective, I had a deep, drunken conversation with a good buddy of mine (who is a brutha), and what he had to say was insightful. If what he says indeed true (I dunno, I'm too lazy to stop by a library to find out), the black community has made as much progress as it has because the leaders of the Civil Rights movement made long term, tangible goals.

So what does civil rights have to do with CCBs and getting ass/love? Simple: black men were in the same position only a few decades ago that we are in now. Setting aside different stereotypes for the moment, you think girls of all colors in the rainbow would be going crazy for BMs like Usher, Taye Diggs, etc. today had the black community not made an active effort to educate each other about self-perception and stressed the "Black is Beautiful" movement? Also, my friend claimed at one point a lot of black girls actually preferred white men over black men because of self-hate and self-image issues too (though I haven't verified that either).

Frederick Douglas said it best:

"People might not get all they work for in this world, but they must certainly work for all they get."

At this point, we're certainly not going to change every CCB's perception of us for the better, but if we don't lift a finger starting now, we achieve nothing at all.

Hell, I admit when I saw that thread about Gong Li dating some nobody white guy, I felt like shit. However, there's no time to feel like shit, we have work to do. Keep improving yourself, keep educating others in a non-confrontational way and keep hoping. Things will change slowly, but they will change eventually.

lycheng
Apr 17th, 2006, 08:37 PM
I enjoyed Tojo's post too. I also echo Silkie and Poisenedrice comments about building our own confidence one step at a time. And to do that, you have to have some level of detachment from the anger.

Hell, I admit when I saw that thread about Gong Li dating some nobody white guy, I felt like shit. However, there's no time to feel like shit, we have work to do. Keep improving yourself, keep educating others in a non-confrontational way and keep hoping. Things will change slowly, but they will change eventually.

Exactly! Pointing out that Gong Li's with a white guy doesn't do a damn thing about our situation. All that does is feed the anger, frustration and negativity. In fact, I would argue that feeding the IR disparity anger takes us away from real issues that all AA's face.

lycheng

silkie
Apr 17th, 2006, 09:16 PM
Pointing out that Gong Li's with a white guy doesn't do a damn thing about our situation. All that does is feed the anger, frustration and negativity.

You've hit it on the nail. I cannot say this better myself.
Although I admit feeling this anger is very indulgent, it's like smoking a cigarette-- I feel a great rush the first puff, but then I end up feeling gross and groggy, and trapped afterwards.

nskripchun
Apr 19th, 2006, 03:39 AM
woah i totally missed this post!

excellent points toj.

Same... is this part of a column?

Excellent post, tojo.

Tyger Durden
Apr 19th, 2006, 10:11 PM
What are our options?

1. Reggie = Rage.
2. Alex = Shrug it off and move on.
3. Becker = Hate the world

All unacceptable. Alternatives?

4. Change the perception of what ìterribly normalî is.
5. Force reality to accept your version of ìnormal.î



option #4 is easier than option #5.

From my understanding of what it states, I think it means one person at a time changing the way they view the World. A personal change.

Option #5 seems impossible...forcing reality to accept your version of ìnormal.î?

Maybe i can't comprehend that concept correctly. Maybe somebody can bring up any suggestions of how to go about accomplishing that. I can see that being done through Art and Media, but Reality seems to be Relative at times.

overall, really good thoughts.