Dialectic
Oct 30th, 2004, 12:18 PM
Oh my lord there's just so much GENIUS in my email folders that it MUST be shared. This email was not written by ZhaoGao, but rather by a forum member whose forum ID I can't even reveal 'cause that would cause TROUBLE. The "core" he refers to is not the "Core 44." This is also from 2002.
Hey boys, softness (which is what we have in abundance, you too ZhaoGao) can bring us trouble I've decided.
As you know, following my most tiring day ever I got back with Angie and we are dating. As she is cute and as it means a regular person to be with I didn't see any problem at first. But the problem lies in that even though Angie is hot as far as body goes, there just isn't something about her face that truly captivates me. I am very shallow at this tender age of 23. I can't help but see the many cute faces around (what is it about them that I like?) and want to be with one (even if they are less hot so-to-speak in terms of overall package). I guess I really am a face guy first and foremost. So the problem is that I like Angie, have fun with her, but have the feeling deep down inside that I am going to hurt her and this is making me feel guilty. You see, Asian women can get attached faster than us core members. As we are logical and calculating, saying 'I love you' is something that will forever be reserved for reciting movie lines, not for spontaneous sharing of emotions. SO I am left with someone who loves me, but I don't know if I'll love her in the long-run. I mean, won't I be leaving in 1-2 years at most?
Making matters more complex is that we are going on a short vacation together soon so I can't exactly bring up these issues right now...the money for the ticket is sunk and I don't factor things in terms of sunk costs theory.
So it is my desire not to hurt Angie in the long-run which is making me think that maybe I should break up with her just so that I can try and date someone who I find cuter (note the 'I' as it might not be universal, there is just this cute look that I like here...). However, knowing that I probably won't succeed makes me think that staying with her is the logical choice as it is easy (laziness + fear?).
Oh, Angie is older, which means that I can afford to fuck around but I feel guilty as she thinks long-term and I don't know how serious I am...do people ever know within the first 6 months (non Christians I mean)?
So I find myself at an odd cross-roads. Wanting to have a gf makes me think that staying with Angie is the answer. Knowing that that is stupid makes me think that I should break-up with her (but that would hurt her makign it more difficult), and try and find Miss Perfect for me (mind/body, etc.). However, realizing that I might just be being shallow makes me stall...so I guess I have to figure out my path which will hopefully come to me over my Christmas break...
anyway, sorry for rambling,
Paul
Hey boys, softness (which is what we have in abundance, you too ZhaoGao) can bring us trouble I've decided.
As you know, following my most tiring day ever I got back with Angie and we are dating. As she is cute and as it means a regular person to be with I didn't see any problem at first. But the problem lies in that even though Angie is hot as far as body goes, there just isn't something about her face that truly captivates me. I am very shallow at this tender age of 23. I can't help but see the many cute faces around (what is it about them that I like?) and want to be with one (even if they are less hot so-to-speak in terms of overall package). I guess I really am a face guy first and foremost. So the problem is that I like Angie, have fun with her, but have the feeling deep down inside that I am going to hurt her and this is making me feel guilty. You see, Asian women can get attached faster than us core members. As we are logical and calculating, saying 'I love you' is something that will forever be reserved for reciting movie lines, not for spontaneous sharing of emotions. SO I am left with someone who loves me, but I don't know if I'll love her in the long-run. I mean, won't I be leaving in 1-2 years at most?
Making matters more complex is that we are going on a short vacation together soon so I can't exactly bring up these issues right now...the money for the ticket is sunk and I don't factor things in terms of sunk costs theory.
So it is my desire not to hurt Angie in the long-run which is making me think that maybe I should break up with her just so that I can try and date someone who I find cuter (note the 'I' as it might not be universal, there is just this cute look that I like here...). However, knowing that I probably won't succeed makes me think that staying with her is the logical choice as it is easy (laziness + fear?).
Oh, Angie is older, which means that I can afford to fuck around but I feel guilty as she thinks long-term and I don't know how serious I am...do people ever know within the first 6 months (non Christians I mean)?
So I find myself at an odd cross-roads. Wanting to have a gf makes me think that staying with Angie is the answer. Knowing that that is stupid makes me think that I should break-up with her (but that would hurt her makign it more difficult), and try and find Miss Perfect for me (mind/body, etc.). However, realizing that I might just be being shallow makes me stall...so I guess I have to figure out my path which will hopefully come to me over my Christmas break...
anyway, sorry for rambling,
Paul